A really "goode" life

When I packed my stuff into storage a few months ago and drove away from Seattle for the first of many trips, I was overwhelmed with a sense of wanting to be rooted, stable and in one place. For about the first 3 weeks I was thoroughly convinced that I was ready to "settle down" and for all intents and purposes, track my life on a traditional and typical track, there was a part of me that just seemed to succumb to life long pressures that I should domesticate, have a clear career path, not explore my ephemeral interests or passions that offer no easy, clear or distinct path. I am not that type of person that has ever fit into a mold, but there I was shrugging my shoulders and saying, "well, maybe that is the answer". And then I woke up from that scary nightmare.

Everyday the sunrises. But everything else changes and ends.

And when I say I awoke, I really did. You can see in my most recent blog postings, not only am I in a really rad place, but I have finally embraced the fact that a non-traditional life and path is what is right for me. I am not only hitting my stride, I am actually finally synthesizing the ideas I have into life. I quickly realized that I don't have a desire to take my stuff out of storage and set up house, because right now I don't know where I want to be. Furthermore, I don't have any need or want of the belonging I have in storage and simply paying massive amounts of rent just to feign some sort of rootedness is ridiculous. Frankly, I am losing absolutely nothing by not being in one place. Where do I live? Here. Wherever that is. I am really, really comfortable in my own skin. I feel like I am completely open to where life is taking me. I am truly living with amor fati . And it is bringing out the best in me. I am inspired daily to write, to run, to cook, to celebrate life. It is pretty cool. And that is why when I happened upon this posting for a "job" opportunity at Murphy Goode Winery, my jaw dropped and I instantly thought: maybe my life has conspired to put me in exactly the right circumstance to be the exact right candidate for this position. I mean check out this description:


You must be at least 21 years old and eligible to work in the U.S. and should be an excellent communicator, imaginative and inquisitive. Show us your marketing and public relations track record for effectively using Web 2.0 tools including social networking sites, video-sharing sites, blogs and more on both computer and mobile devices. You should be passionate about wine. In addition, you’re a “people person” who can speak to customers, colleagues and media. You have great verbal and written English language skills and are able to provide multiple writing samples.


Here’s what you’ll be doing:

  • Exploring the vineyards of Murphy-Goode and surrounding areas and discovering what the Sonoma County Wine Country has to offer, from well-known destinations to off-the-beaten-path spots.
  • Tasting hundreds of wines and meeting the locals in our tasting room.
  • Increasing your wine wisdom: while studying isn’t required, our winemaking and vineyard experts will take the time to show you how it’s all done.
  • Working with our winemaker, David Ready, Jr., to create a new wine commemorating your job with us.
  • Filing reports on your experiences, via weekly blogs, photo diaries, Twitter, Facebook, video updates and ongoing media interviews.
Other duties may include:
  • Tracking the local owl and raptor populations: There are hundreds of raptors patrolling the vineyards, keeping the grapes safe from harmful pests. Monitoring owl and hawk populations — particularly those that inhabit the new series of nesting boxes — is helpful to our sustainable farming practices.
  • Testing potential picnic sites: Sonoma County is full of scenic spots, and visitors will need guidance on how to choose the best place for a picnic. Scout undiscovered sites and test-picnic established locations.
  • Playing Liar’s Dice in the Barrel Room: (We named one of our great Zins “Liar’s Dice.”)
The six-month, temporary position with Murphy-Goode Winery starts August 1, 2009.

When I read that, it screams at me. I see myself being in a position like that. In fact, compensation aside, I would do that for free and I kind of do already. I live my life, I run, I cook, I socialize, I enjoy the nooks and crannies of life and I write, blog, tweet all about it. I am passionate, dedicated and hardworking. All the things that they say they want. But I don't really need to sell myself to you, or anyone. In fact, I am so thoroughly trusting of life and fate right now that I know if this is what life has conspired for me than celebrate and good times, but I am not invested in the outcome. I am intrigued though, I think I would be a fantastic fit for this position. But if not this, than there will be something else. Right now, I am just open I don't have a long term plan. I am not agonizing over what I need to accomplish for some future moment down the line or planning out a set of standards I need to achieve by certain dates and times. Don't get it twisted, I am still highly motivated, hard working and daily accomplishing more than I have been in a long time, but again, I am doing it for the present moment which ultimately cultivates me future reality on its on. As the Chinese proverb says,

"If you want to know your past – look into your present conditions. If you want to know your future – look into your present actions.”

I look forward to the adventure as well as sharing the journey with you. And finally a short Taoist tale to start your day off right. This story is what I remembered when my tires blew out recently on the car I was transporting across country. The only reason I didn't have a deadly accident is because I was driving very slowly due to getting two speeding tickets in a very short time. All things in life: good or bad, who is to say?

A man who lived on the northern frontier of China was skilled in interpreting events. One day, for no reason, his horse ran away to the nomads across the border. Everyone tried to console him, but his father said, "What makes you so sure this isn't a blessing?" Some months later his horse returned, bringing a splendid nomad stallion. Everyone congratulated him, but his father said, "What makes you so sure this isn't a disaster?" Their household was richer by a fine horse, which his son loved to ride. One day he fell and broke his hip. Everyone tried to console him, but his father said, "What makes you so sure this isn't a blessing?" A year later the nomads came in force across the border, and every able-bodied man took his bow and went into battle. The Chinese frontiersmen lost nine of every ten men. Only because the son was lame did the father and son survive to take care of each other. Truly, blessing turns to disaster, and disaster to blessing: the changes have no end, nor can the mystery be fathomed. The Lost Horse, Chinese Folktale. As told by Ellen J. Langer, in" The Power of Mindful Learning," Reading, Mass: Addison-Wesley, page 99-100. (1997).